Stream Of Inspiration

Bloomington Journal, March 22, 2010

Here and yet again, I'm awake at the time where most people are sleeping. With the company of a dripping raindrop outside my window my mind once again wander to the realm of deep music. Trying to uncover its mystery as always.

Today I spent more time writing music than practicing it. Brainstorming for new ideas and putting it all together. It is indeed interesting and fun. I realize that there is this "source" of idea that never die in me. This is what some say the "divine inspiration" or "God inspire the artist". I wish not to discuss about what it is called whatsoever. What I was thinking is this : How did this thing come to me? Since when did this unstoppable river of ideas run in me?

I believe that my fellow musician do have this "river" in different forms in their minds. But what about everybody else? Do they have this river of idea as well? Or do they not? This has been intriguing me for some times for as far as I remember I never have any attempt to obtain this river of ideas and I don't know as well since when this river has been running inside me so I was thinking that this kind of river is in every human being in this world. But why do some people have shown better performance in creative works than others? Why do some people have better ideas than others (the term better is of course very subjective but we will assume the general assumption of this term) ? In my years of music training I saw a lot of great ideas pouring into great music as well as people depressing over their so called "failed" creation. Is it only the matter of opening the dam and letting the river flow? Or is it true that only some gifted few people have this river?
Another question arise : Is music a gift or is it not? Can it be obtained by pure hardwork?

So many things appear in my mind today. Although I might not find the answer immediately I will make sure to search for them in the near future. Farewell for today my faithful reader. I will now lead my mind towards the realm of dream and magic.